Recapitulation Reminder

Another great post from Comtemporary Shaman.

Contemporary Shaman

600_451159830Dear Kin

Many of you ask me about recapitulation over and over again. I have posted it before so this time please copy it and keep it. It’s an essential tool to survive in this busy chaotic climate. It is a very old shamanic technique that is easy to do and you can really go deep with it in your own time.

Look and see if the outbreath or inbreath is deeper, fuller, longer when you practice. This lets you know if you are more likely to give your power away or that you absorb too much of others debri’s.

Recapitulation is akin to a mini soul retrieval and can get you through challenging time until you find a good practitioner to work with to do deeper work. You can also find it and other tools and journey tips in my workbook at my website.


Recapitulation is going back…

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Past Lives… Memories… Deep Healing and Love is bigger that That 💙


I did a much anticipated reading for one of my Facebook friends in Florida this morning and it was out of this world. Straight off the bat the information came thick and fast, so much past life stuff that included so many souls. I don’t consider myself a past life reader but this session may have changed that view! The connections were amazing and I got a little confused at one stage lol coz there was so much going on. I had two special young men in spirit that were in my work room, goofing around and throwing a baseball to each other, catching it in their mitts and having a great time. They were so happy to be getting their messages through to my friend, Tracey and her daughter Sam. These boys had so much love in their hearts and souls and I loved the gratitude they were directing at me for being the person to bring all of them together, even though it was for a short time, it was profound and very, very healing. One of the boys had been murdered 10 years ago and the other only lived a short time after birth, old souls…

A lot of questions were answered and the ladies were able to put many things into place and understand the complexity of situations that could not be understood on face value. I loved speaking with Sam as she is an old soul and a smart kid to boot. I didn’t realise she was in the room till about half way through the reading. I gave them very clear guidance about moving forward and suggested to do a big smudge and cleanse on themselves and the house. Tracey was crying so I knew I’d done a good job lol and at the end of the reading she thanked me about 17 times and told me that she loved me ❤️

When she told me that I got all warm and fuzzy and those words from the heart just confirmed why I do what I do. I am so blessed that I can help others in such a profound way and I am grateful every day. Big ups to my Guides and to Justin and Matthew for giving me a hand. 🙏🙏

Looking in the Mirror… Reflection and Moving On…

I grew up in Sydney, Australia. My childhood was unstable, unpredictable and terrifying.

I made the decision just over 20 years ago that I wanted nothing to do with my family so I told them they were no longer my blood, I wanted nothing to do with them and to never contact me again. I had no choice, it was an act of self preservation.

I grew up amid dysfunction, domestic violence, addiction and neglect. My father was a violent, angry drunk that beat my mother weekly for at least 20 years that I know of (I escaped the first time when I was 18 years old when I moved to another city 100 kms away from my home town). I lived in survival mode the whole time I was in the family home, trying to keep myself and my siblings out of harms way. My father never hit us but my mother did. She would hit us with all manner of things as well as slap your face, repeatedly, I hated that! I believe she has an undiagnosed mental illness as she was emotionally unstable, cruel, manipulative, spiteful and she used to make up stories about her life and other things that were not true. She lied to me about her side of the family and I only found out the truth when my family found me 3 years ago. I could not believe they found me after so long and that brought on the biggest trigger of my life so far, I have had two other major triggers as well.

When I was 14 years old I was badly burnt in a house fire in the family home, my father was also involved but I received 2nd and 3rd degree burns to 35% of my body, I was hospitalised for 3 months and I thought I was going to die. When I came out of hospital my parents shipped me off to my favourite Auntie’s house as I needed round the clock care, wound dressings, Pain Management etc. Thank the Goddess they did send me to her, I had some respite for a couple of months, away from the chaos, I could relax! I stayed with her until till I could walk again then it was back to the hell hole at number 27. The fire incident and my subsequent injuries had ramped up the craziness and violence at home as my parents blamed each other. I struggled to catch up with school and only did the minimum requirement before I left school at 16 as I could not focus on study due to what was going on at home. I also started using drugs around this time.

When I finally got away at 18 I became a Nurse. I had a great time doing that job. My parents were still too close for comfort so I decided to sell everything I owned and move to the other side of the country (Perth). My parents forbid me to do it so I did it anyway! I could finally breath, at last. I started a new life and a new career as a Croupier. About a year after I arrived in W.A. I found out I was pregnant, it had happened during a one night stand. I was drinking, taking drugs and being promiscuous so didn’t realise until I was 11 weeks. I had a termination the week after I found out and just got on with my life, I didn’t feel good about what I had to do but knew I could not bring up a child at that point in my life. I was 24 years old.

Two months later I met my soul mate and the man I would spend the next 10 years with. We travelled the world working in different casinos from Perth to Malaysia, to Moscow and in between. We did love each other in a dysfunctional kind of way, we looked out for each other during our travels but eventually grew apart so we separated, the decision was mutual. We took a lot of drugs together, did extremely risky and dangerous things, almost got arrested in Bangkok with heroin and just got out of that nightmare by the skin of our teeth. After we split up I came back to Australia, heartbroken and a total mess. My parents asked me to come home so they could look after me, in my despair I agreed. They did an absolute number on me which pushed me to almost take my life. In 6 weeks I lost my 10 year relationship, my 12 year career and my whole family. I was crippled with grief and alone.

This sent me into a downward spiral that I’m lucky to have survived. I pawned some stuff and got on a bus to Perth, I was determined to get back here for some reason. When I arrived I caught up with some people I used to know, got a job in a bar, rented a room in a share house and went on a 3 year drug binge. I also became a drug dealer to feed my habit and got into some circles that were not good. I had a lot of bad people around me, dark energy and violence. It got to a stage where I was so out of control my friends tried to do an intervention but I was having none of it. What woke me up was being threatened with physical violence for an unpaid drug debt. That got my attention! I stood back & had a look at my life, started to cut down the amount of drugs I was taking and 3 months later I had stopped using. I packed all my possessions in my little car and drove away from that life while my housemates were at work, nobody knew where I had gone. I had to start a new life all on my own!

A week after I got away I went to a GP and told her I needed help as I was drug fucked and that I needed help. I told her I had gone cold turkey off more than one street drug and I was kinda freaking out. All the crazy memories from my past came back in a blinding flash and I was completely overwhelmed. She got me in as an outpatient at a rehab clinic near where I was living, so I went there weekly for the next year. I detoxed quickly but still had to wee in a cup while someone watched me for 6 months, that was both humiliating and a humbling experience. I was medicated as well as seeing a psychologist a psychiatrist weekly. The clinic saved my life.

Just 4 short months later I would step onto my spiritual path with gusto. I found my way to the door of the woman that would teach, guide and nurture me for the next 4 years. I studied Tarot, Psychic Development and Astrology for 4 years, these fascinating subjects gave me a focus and opened up the abilities I had kept hidden for so many years. I knew I had found my calling and have been working as a professional Medium for the past 17 years. I have never taken drugs again, I have not had a drink for almost 10 years and I quit smoking 4.5 years ago.

Fast forward to September 2016 when my neighbour who was on methamphetamine and drunk went crazy, jumped my back fence, smashed up all my stuff and threatened to kill me. Hello PTSD, there you are! I completely lost it and was in the foetal position on the floor having a full blown panic attack, experiencing flashbacks and feeling like I was 8 years old again in the family home. The police came and arrested him & took him to jail. I moved out of there a few weeks later. When I was settled in my new house I went to my new GP and told her what had been going on. She referrred me to a Psychologist that I had 15 sessions with over 10 months. The psychologist diagnosed me with Complex Trauma & Major Depressive Disorder. In April of 2017 I fell back into the darkness. I spiraled down into the pit of despair and went through a truly awful dark night of the soul. I became suicidal again and could not see my way clear. I was overwhelmed, terrified and barely able to function.

My best friend could see I was not in a good place in September and took me to the Doctor. Dr Michelle referred me to the mental health unit in my area. I was given a case worker that called me every day and had to see a very caring and funny Psychiatrist every 2 weeks, he also put me on another medication. That medication saved my life and within 2 weeks I was out of the darkness and the depression was all but gone, the anxiety halved. I have now been on those meds for 5 months and I feel great! I also had a psychiatric assessment and was diagnosed with MDD, PTSD and BPD. I have also resumed shamanic healing with a wonderful woman I have been working with for the past 3 years. I have found that healing very beneficial as it works on the soul level and I trust the practicioner completely. I have done 20 sessions with her over 3 years. Through the recent dark night of the soul and soul retrieval I have come to a deeper understanding of the complexity of my past.

I am managing much better now and am so grateful. I started Dialectical Behaviour Therapy in January and feel very positive about it. I have read just about every book about complex trauma, BPD and PTSD just to try and understand it. I now have clients coming to me with the same mental illnesses and I find myself helping and guiding them through the minefield that is trauma. All of this thanks to my own experiences. I feel I have almost come full circle and I know I will be helping people in that capacity in the future. I’m determined to heal as much as I can and I now look forward to the future.

This will be the last post I write about my past as the only way for me now is forward. All those events shaped me and my life and I am grateful for all those experiences. I am now able to sit with them without them hurting me. My heart is singing with the knowledge that I have done something I thought I would never be able to do, I have overcome my past! What happened is ok, it doesn’t matter anymore, all that matters is Love ❤️

M x

Personal Growth – is it optional?

A great write up by Tess from Wild EnchanTress ❤️

Soul Searching - Finding the answers through the Cards

Personal growth is not a tree that is evident in everyone’s backyard. Why do some people grow, change, thrive, and others do not? This question was put to me for discussion by an intelligent, growing and ever changing person. I realised that this question needed much understanding and thought which could only be sourced through deep meditation and external searching.

The first idea that came to me was courage, that is courage to face our life, our ego and our authenticity level head on.

It doesn’t matter who you are, how good or bad your experience in this life has been. The hardships and pain each and every one on earth experiences is no more or less for each of us from a relative perspective. It comes down to the meter or measuring stick that we use to compare our struggles with our overall individual experience.

My tool for understanding…

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Message from the Arcturians 

A great blog post from awakening5dhealing 💙


‘This is a message for channelers, mediums, psychics, QHHT practitioners and all those who communicate across dimensions.

We the Arcturian Council of Twelve are here to remind you to practise daily protection. To remember mantras of peace, love and compassion. A fierce war is raging all around Gaia. There is turmoil in the skies and on the land. The secrets that lie in the seas will be revealed, the skies will no longer be cloaked and when the war has come to pass there will be a new, cleaner space. Gaia will have vanquished low frequencies, and those who have transcended light with her will see a new earth. A new plane of existence. For some this has already occurred. We see lights switching on every day spreading and illuminating the darkness that shrouds the old earth. The Shift is happening. We see fear rolling back and love flooding your…

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December Tarotscopes 2017.

IMG_9664Aries ♈️

Decemeber looks to be an interesting month for you Rams. You may be faced with many choices,  it’s important that you don’t allow confusion to reign and affect your decision making. Trust yourself and your inner compass, look for the markers on your path, they will show you the way to go. You may have to slow down a little bit to be sure you see what is before you, avoid rushing around and doing too many things at once.  If something feels right, do it, if it doesn’t feel right, don’t do it. Be courageous and show people your strength. Someone may try to deceive you or present something to you that is not true, again trust yourself to work out what is right and wrong. As the end of the month draws near be sure to maintain balance and don’t get flustered. Enjoy the festive season and share the love with those you care about. Merry Christmas 🎄


Taurus ♉️

As 2017 draws to a close you can be proud of yourself and how far you have come this year Taurus. You are also coming to the end of a cycle in your life that required introspection and growth, you have done very well and can give yourself a high five!  December sees you feeling energised and wanting to tie up any loose ends before we begin the number 2 year in 2018. I feel there is something that needs your focus and it’s an inner feeling or knowing that you have. Look into this and determine how it fits into the person you have become. What is outdated, is it your beliefs or perhaps they way you look at something important in your life. Only you can know what that is. Remember to be kind to you yourself and be sure to buy yourself a nice gift, something meaningful that will remind you of how fabulous you are and how far you have come. Merry Christmas 🎄


Gemini ♊️

Congratulations Gemini, you have made it! 2017 has tested you and you have come through with flying colours. Your courage is being acknowledged and that is what got you through, that and your strong and pure heart. A situation that was causing you grief has changed so dramatically it makes you wonder if what you went through really happened. Yes it was painful but it was a deep soul lesson that has put you on to another path, the next stage of your life. It’s ok to feel confident and step forward knowing that things have changed for the better and you will be rewarded for you bravery.  One of your biggest tests was to surrender and to place your trust in the power of the universe to be able to work out the best outcome for all. At the end of the month make a sacred space for yourself and do a releasing ritual to let go of the last of this year. Merry Christmas 🎄


Cancer ♋️

Relationships and love have been important for you this year and there has been a deepening of the relationships closest to you. This is beautiful and has made you feel more secure in your life knowing you are very loved. You have worked hard to secure your place in the world and next year will see your work life blossom with perhaps a new position or pay rise or promotion. If there is one thing new you have been thinking about doing, go for it, you will be surprised how good it makes you feel. Prosperity is coming so be patient and allow it to come to you rather than chasing it. Balance is coming up so be sure to keep a balance in everything that you do, especially emotionally. Allow yourself some time off to enjoy the festive season with those you love. Merry Christmas 🎄


Leo ♌️

This month is looking good for you Leo, lots of positive energy and good feelings are around you. You have made great progress on plans you had and should be proud of yourself. Don’t allow others thoughts or opinions to bring you down, you are majestic and courageous, let those words slide right off you, hold your head high. Spend time with people that honour you and your truth, if you feel someone is not doing that consider their place in your life, there is only roomfor people from your tribe in your life now. There is a well earned rest coming up for you, you have been hard at it this year and you deserve some time out. Focus on what’s important to you and steer yourself in that direction. You know what’s right for you and trust that inner knowing that sparks loudly to you. Stand in your power and step forward with courage. Merry Christmas 🎄


Virgo ♍️

December brings change for you Virgo and it’s not before time. I feel you have been holding on to a way of doing or seeing things that is outdated and not in your best interests. You can be stubborn sometimes and refuse to see things in a different way than how you think they should be. This is going to be shaken up this month and you will be forced to change your ways whether you like it or not. Once the dust settles you will see why things had to change and you will understand things on a deeper level. Don’t look at it as losing something, rather look at it as gaining a new viewpoint. Your intuition will be heightened at the end of the month so be sure to trust your feelings and hunches particularly where men are concerned, look at people actions rather than listening t9 her words. Words are cheap. Have fun in the festive season. Merry Christmas 🎄


Libra ♎️

Decemeber will be interesting Librans as you evaluate what has happened this year. There will be things that have worked well and other not so much so. There is a situation that did not go quite as planned and you may be feeling disappointed but try to look at how you could change things around to make it work better. Don’t lose heart, pick it up again next year and have another go. Clear your head over the Xmas break and see what fresh ideas come up that you can put into practice next year. Trust yourself and look inside for the answers you seek, don’t allow the harsh inner critic to have too much of a voice as he so doesn’t know the right thing to do! Think positive thoughts and make your intention clear, the universe is always listening. Spend time with family and those that cherish you at the end of the month. Laugh and smile, you’re beautiful when you do that. Merry Christmas 🎄


Scorpio ♏️

Change has been a constant for you this year and December will bring about more of it. You have been on a deep inner journey, discovering parts of you that were hidden until a couple of years ago. The spiritual practice you now have serves you very well and you should be trusting yourself more and more, the feelings and hunches you have are spot on so be sure to continue to trust them. I feel you have learned many new things and you will soon put some of them into practice to help others. As you move towards the end of the year try to release the inner conflict you have and know that things are exactly as they are meant to be. Put your losses behind you and look toward the future. If you feel you need to bring in changes into your life now is the time to do it, don’t be afraid to let go of what no longer serves you and those closest to you. Merry Christmas 🎄


Sagittarius ♐️

You may have found this year disruptive Sagi but the changes we’re nexessaty. You had got into a comfortable rut and there is no way the universe is going to let us stay in that for too long. Try to be more flexible and trusting that a higher power knows what is right for us. I can see your thoughts have been a bit of a problem and encourage you to not go too far down the road of negative thinking as this can really throw you off, you being such a fun loving person! Remember they are only thoughts and have no power over you. Whatever has upset you just let it go, you can’t change things to release it and move forward. As the end of the year draws near be sure to nurture yourself and take capgood care of you. Buy your,self something special and know that you deserve it. You are well loved by many. Merry Christmas 🎄


Capricorn ♑️

Balance seems to be the key right now Capricorn so be sure to put yourself into consideration when dealing with others. Do you give more that you receive? It’s all very well to put others first but in the long run it won’t make you feel good, if anything you may find yourself feeling resentful. You have experienced great change this year and this will continue through 2018 as you move forward. Be strong and speak your truth, this will serve you well. There may be a male in your life that you will need to have some words with soon, be diplomatic and stand in your power. You have worked hard to get where you are right now and good on you for doing that. Use the energy of this month to release past hurts and feelings of sadness from the past, you have carried them for too long now. Merry Christmas 🎄


Aquarius ♒️

I feel it’s time for a purge Aquarius, a time to do a big release as you have been holding on to old hurts for far too long now. Doing a clearing and cleanse of your space is a good place to start, the do it for yourself and your family. I am hearing ‘cut people and situations form your life for good’. You give a lot of yourself away and it is not always appreciated so be aware of where your energy goes. Some time out would serve you well, a time to look within work out wher you are in your life. You may hear from or about people from your past, this will happen as it’s time for a clean out of what no longer fits with the person that you are now. Clean out your closet so you can step into 2018 with room to make new things happen in your life. Purify your environment and your inner world as well. It’s time. Merry Christmas 🎄


Pisces ♓️


Emotions and family are highlighted this month Pisces. Be sure to keep a balance and protect yourself by cleansing yourself with white sage or Palo Santo and wearing crystals. You are very sensitive and need to take extra good care of yourselves, particularly when you are around negative or harsh people. Don’t allow people to talk down to you or listen to their gossip, that doesn’t serve anyone well. Ask for support this month and it will be forthcoming, you don’t need to do absolutely everything on your own. Take help when it is offered. If you have been experiencing some darkness know that that time is almost over and you can step back into the light again. Having some energy healing will help to lift your vibration and re-energise you, look into this 💗 Merry Christmas 🎄