The Dark Night of the Soul… My Guardian Angel… Ancestral Ties and the Luck of the Irish…

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I certainly chose an interesting life path this time round & my 53 years on this planet have been amazing! I am only now really coming to understand the how’s and why’s as to how I got to where I am today. My childhood was rough and still impacts me to this day but I know I would not be who I am without having experienced overwhelming fear along with neglect as well as mental, physical and emotional abuse. I have worked long and hard to get to this place. At times it has been unbearable and I have considered taking my own life more than once. I have had three exit points in my life where I could have chosen to end this life but a tiny spark of light always kept me going, thankfully. I have overcome the self destructiveness that took me down a long and painful road of drug and alcohol addiction, I almost lost myself there and it frightens me today when I look back at the time I was in the depths of addiction, living a dangerous and out of control life. I have done years of therapy with different therapists, done many types of healing just to keep myself going and to stop me from losing my shit again.

This year has been extremely challenging as I fell into what I call the pit of despair, a deep, dark depression that I could not get myself out of. I now know along with Complex Trauma I also have MDD – Major Depressive Disorder and I have suffered through bouts of depression since I was a child but nothing like I experienced this year. I was in the darkness for 7 months. I could barely function, I couldn’t work enough to support myself and I could feel myself losing the tenuous grip I had on life. Every morning when I woke up I was so disappointed as I knew I had to face another day of despair and not wanting to be here. I didn’t want to go anywhere or talk to anyone. If I didn’t have my beautiful boys, Fergus and Fernando things would have been very grim. I had to get up and look after them. Those eight little legs gave me a reason. Most days I would get up and let them out, give them their breakfast and go back to bed. Fergus would then come in and sleep on the bed next to me until I finally got up. He knew I wasn’t ok. I always took them for a walk, hoping I wouldn’t see anyone so I didn’t have to talk to them as I knew they would see in my eyes that I wasn’t well. Some days I cried the whole time I was walking them, I cried for hours and I couldn’t stop. I was in so much pain that it invaded my whole being. Every part of me hurt, all the time.

 

During those 7 months I had a guardian angel that called me almost every day, she checked on me, brought me food, she brought me flowers, she put money on the kitchen counter so I could survive, she held me while I went through an excruciating dark night of the soul. I was so scared I was not going to come out of it. I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t think straight. I had never told anyone the truth of my past as it comes with much shame, embarrassment and unspeakable pain but I knew it was time to tell someone my story… so that’s what I did. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do, I had to open my heart up to someone and during that process I realised I had never done that before, it was scary! She listened to me and validated my experience. She loved me and I could feel that love even though my heart was breaking. She helped me to understand how to nurture my wounded inner child, to understand what I missed out on but also how I could make it up to that sweet little girl. My guardian angel will never know what she did for me, thanks will never be enough to express the gratitude I have for what she did for me, the love and care she showed me.

I started working with my therapist on inner child work as well and I now see the benefit of doing that. I also had to tell my story to others so I could get the help that I needed. I went to my GP and told her my story, again it was really hard to do and I kind of scared her a bit, I could see it in her eyes. She knew I was in trouble so she referred me to the mental health unit where I live. I am now under their care and on a new medication that has made a massive difference. Over the past month I have come back into the light, I can breathe again, my heart is lighter and I want to be a part of life. It’s such a relief to be alive again! I am back in touch my my higher self, my guides and my psychic abilities are heightened like never before, go figure. I am back in contact with my beautiful Grandma that passed away when I was 3 years old and she is leading me through the next stage of my life. And this guidance from the other side leads me to the next part of my long story.

Last week I went I went to an Expo with a friend that was right up my alley, psychic business, healthy lifestyle, music and all things conscious. I was really keen to have an aura photo taken so I could see where I was at compared to this time last year. When I sat down on the chair to have the photo taken I could literally feel my soul jumping around and I knew the photo was going to show something special. The man taking the photo took a while and I knew why. When it was done I got up and my friend had her photo taken for the first time. I could feel the excitement rising from my root chakra upwards. I looked over to the table wher the photos were drying and when I seen mine it gave me the lift I needed, it was amazing. After you have the photo taken there are psychics at the Booth that read the photos for you. The first thing the lady said to me was ‘aren’t you the beautful one’, I started to cry. She hugged me and told me that I was ok now, I was out of the darkness and I will never go back there again. She also told me how strong my connection is to spirit and that I not only have the white light around me but that I also have it in my heart chakra and I will be able to help many people in the future due to my experiences and the light that is shining from my heart. It gave me back my confidence and that’s exactly what I needed. The last thing she told me is that Grandma is in the light by my right ear.

So… since the weekend I have been feeling on top of the world and yesterday from the time I got up I could not only feel but I could see spirits walking around the house, I knew it was Grandma and some of my ancestors, this is not unusual so I just got on with my day as usual. I felt a man up the back of this house the day I moved in here. Last night I was lying in bed and was scratching around in my bedside table looking for some hand cream, I found it and put some on my hands while I lay there thinking about my day. When I put the hand cream back in the drawer I felt I should look at what was at the back of my tin of creams (I like hand creams lol).  When I reached back I pulled out a book and thought to myself ‘what’s this’? I’d forgotten that I had an old family bible and had no recollection how it had come into my possession. I’m not a bible fan but as soon as I looked at it I knew it was significant. The first page I opened it up to is the picture at the top of this post. The bible was given to my maternal grandfather, John Smith, also known as Jack. His mother Margaret gave it to him when he was 10 years old in 1913. I have a bible that is over 100 years old! Margaret was born in County Meath, my Irish great grandma. My heart skipped a beat as I looked through the pages and I was careful as the bible is so fragile. As I turned to the front of the bible there was writing on the front page. Grandfather John had written something to my mother just weeks before he passed away in 1948, I was overwhelmed as he was the man in the back of my house! As I read his beautful written words I noticed there was a verse written under them. I could not believe it, my heart started racing and I started crying. There were words that my beloved Martha had written in her own hand just before her life took a drastic turn and her beloved husband passed away at the age of 45. I put my hand on that page and cried tears of joy, I finally have something of the grandparents that I was lied to about. I could hold something that both of them held, to touch the words they had written from their hearts almost 60 years ago.

I don’t have any photos or memories of them and only sketchy details that I have managed to find out through different ancestry sites. As I lay there I could feel them with me and Grandma was loving me, I lay there with my hand on their words for a while and I knew they were with me, I could feel them. I can now pick up that bible any time and feel them and their beautiful words. That experience has gladdened my heart so much and today I feel lifted up even more. I am so happy to be back I the world and have a new found confidence to be able to tread the path I am destined to tread. Lookout out world, the newer version of me is here and she’s reading to go. I’m back ❤️

 

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November Tarotscopes…

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Aries ♈️

November will be an interesting month for you Dear Aries. It’s time for you to step outside your comfort zone, to stretch your mind and the deeply intuitive part of yourself as well. You are very connected to your inner wisdom so tap into that and believe! You have been thinking about learning or starting something new and it’s now time to put action behind those thoughts. You already know what I’m talking about so put your fear aside, you are good enough and all you need to do is step into it with trust. Don’t worry yourself with the outcome just step into it, commit to it and be present. You may be surprised where it takes you. Family is also highlighted so you will be dealing with the every day family things but you will also be seeing those closest to you in a different light, there is so much love for you and around you this month.

 

Taurus ♉️

This month will see you feeling lighter and being able to cope better with the every day pressures of life Taurus. You have been through a few challenges over the past 3 months and you have done really well by tackling themin a different way than you used to and this has brought about great results for you. It’s ok to have more confidence in yourself and to feel you are able to deal with issues as they come up. If there is a financial issue around you right now please know that it will be sorted out with the minimum of fuss so you will be able to just get on with things once that is over. It wasn’t as bad as you thought! You will see new things coming into your life in the next few weeks and you may be presented with an opportunity that’s too good to miss, be sure to check it out! Have some fun this month 💟

 

Gemini ♊️

Things are looking up for you Gemin and it’s not before time. After a challenging few months the clouds have finally parted and the sun is suing on you again. There is a feeling of something new being offered to you so be sure to have a look and if it suits you pick it up and run with it. Your work life will be very busy which will prop up your finances in a big way!$! You will be busy helping people to overcome their own challenges and your own past experience will play a big part in this and you will be able to empathise with them as you have been through a similar problem yourself. There will also be choices that must be made, get all the information before you do anything as this will help you to make the RIGHT choice. There will also be important dealings with a man, he may be a water sign, Cancer, Pisces or Scorpio so keep your eye out for him!

 

Cancer ♋️

Your intuition and psychic awareness will be heightened this month crabby folk so be sure to take notice of it and use it to your advantage. Perhaps you have been thinking about learning something new that will help you with this? Psychic development or spiritual classes. I feel there could be an unresolved family issue that raises its ugly head again but that is because it’s time to get it sorted once and for all. You know this has been coming so step into it with tact and diplomacy and understand that there are no winners. If you have to defend yourself so be it and try to understand the other persons side of the story. As the month winds up you will be in a very good place within yourself. Meditation and relaxation will serve you well so try to get a regular practice going, you’ll be glad you did.

 

Leo ♌️

Hi Leo’s. It’s going to be an interesting month for you. I feel there may be more than one situation/issue in your life that needs to be brought to a close. It’s about understanding that you have done all you can and it’s time to take what is left and to walk away, not with sadness but rather with an understanding that things have turned out as they were meant to and to accept what is. Try to avoid anger and blame as this won’t work for you, in fact it may backfire on you. Look at what you do have, rather than what you don’t have. There are new beginnings waiting for you so step forward to meet them rather than looking back. There will be an older woman that plays an important part in your life towards the end of the month, listen to her sage advice and allow her to help you. Ypu will be so glad you did!

 

Virgo ♍️

November will have its share of ups & downs for you Virgo but it’s nothing you can’t handle. Take what comes in your stride and know that what leaves your life will be replaced by something much better, it’s not a loss, it’s just a change. You may find yourself teaming up with someone to make plans and decisions together, a mutually beneficial agreement that will work out well for both of you. If you have to sign anything be sure to read things thoroughly before putting pen to paper. As the month progresses you will find things moving faster and this will be the way until the end of the year, it’s very exciting! If you find yourself getting a little flustered just centre yourself, walk on the grass or meditate, this will help to ground you. Be sure to make a wish this month and it may just come true.

 

Libra ♎️

November will be a busy month for you Librans and you may find yourself juggling a few things at once, I heard ‘ many balls in the air’. There will be things that work and things that don’t work, perhaps a plan or something you had been working on won’t work out the way you do hoped but do not despair as this is meant to be, something better is just around the corner. Allow yourself to release what didn’t work and don’t be tempted to try and shape it into something else, it won’t work. Once you get over that hurdle the way forward is clear and you will find things running more smoothly . Don’t be afraid to put your ideas into motion, even the ones you think may be a bit out there. You have the will and focus to to what needs to be done. Do something really nice for yourself this month, you deserve it.

 

Scorpio ♏️

Interesting times are ahead Scorpio and this month will see you taking an inner journey that is much overdue. I feel there are a couple of unresolved emotional issues that you have been avoiding and it’s time for you to sort them out once and for all. You are far stronger than you give yourself credit for and you can navigate the deep waters within yourself to come to a resolution. There is forgiveness involved here, both of self and of others. This will bring more meaning to your life as you come to see yourself in a different light. You are worthy of all that is good and beautiful in this world. The universe is trying to show you this. You are loved by many people and those in the angelic realms. Know that this time will pass and the releasing that you do was much needed for your spiritual growth.

 

Sagittarius ♐️

Lovely times are ahead Sagi 💜 I feel a lot of love around you and all your relationships will reflect this. You may hear of an engagement or wedding in your close circle, if not for yourself! There is much to be happy about and I encourage you to rejoice in all that is good in your lives. Many of the problems of your past are now behind you and this is due to the work you have been doing to let go of old, worn out patterns of behaviour, rest assured that you can step forward with confidence now. There will be changes in your work life as well, perhaps you will look for a new job or there will be a promotion, whatever happens will be for the better. Be confident and know you have the skills to do the job well. If people ask for your help be sure to be open hearted and do what you can for them. Bless you!

 

Capricorn ♑️

This month will be a good one for you Capricorn’s. You can feel good about what you are doing and where you are heading, be confident but humble at the same time and trust yourself. Be honest in your dealings and don’t be afraid to speak your mind.  You may find yourself going on a journey of sorts, it may be to far flung lands but it may also be an important inner journey. I feel there is an emotional situation that has been causing you some trouble. It’s time to look within yourself and be honest about how it all started and your part in it. There may be apologies that need to be made so do just that and you will feel better for it. The end of a cycle is coming up for you so it’s important to tie up loose ends and to let go of that which no longer serves you. You don’t need to carry old crap into the new cycle, that’s for sure!

 

Aquarius ♒️

It’s time to put down some of your burdens Aquarius, you can’t do everything and that’s ok. I feel you have taken on too much and need to sort out what’s really important in your life. Take care of your own business first and this will leave you feeling less stressed. Others will play a big part in the event so that occur this month. For you it’s important that you listen to people’s words closely, read between the lines to know what they really mean. Also take note of their actions as this is the most telling thing they can show you. If they are not acting & speaking with integrity take note! Stepping back and observing would be your best bet in November and avoid saying too much to the wrong people. Gossip is nasty business. Be sure to take some time our for yourlself & have some energy healing or a good massage.

 

Pisces ♓️

You may be feeling weighed down by some of life’s problems this month Pisces but take heart and understand that they aren’t all yours. Your natural empathy can weigh you down sometimes so be sure to differentiate what is yours and what isn’t. There may be issues around your parents or older people that are important in your life. I feel some spiritual healing is needed for you to clear out the gunk and free up your heart, something energetic like soul retrieval or a shamanic type of healing will work well.If you are single I feel it’s time that you started thinking about love again and being in a beautful partnership with someone that is worthy of you. If you are in a relationship you will see lovely change within that union. Take it slowly for the rest of the year, you don’t need to rush into anything or make anything happen.

Childhood Trauma. The Sins of the Father & Trying to Find Your Way Back to Yourself…

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This morning I did a very emotional reading that is sitting heavily on my heart.

Monica had been for a reading with me before but I hadn’t heard from her for a couple of years so I was happy that she was coming to see me again. I prefer to do face to face readings at my home, it’s nice to be able to be in the same space as the person you are reading for. As soon as she sat down I could feel she was not in a good place and I braced myself. We had a chat about what had been happening in her life since I had seen her last and she started to cry. She told me she felt like her life was out of control, she was having challenges in all her relationships, her emotions were heightened and that she was having bouts of depression and crippling anxiety. Straight away I knew what the reading was going to be about.

I put the cards away, put the tissues next to her and started to talk to her about childhood trauma, how it affects you and my experience with it. I asked her about her childhood and she proceeded to tell me there was violence and sexual abuse in her past, by this time she was sobbing and I was barely holding it together. I spoke to her softly and told her that I understood what she had been through then asked if she has been for counselling or to see a Psychologist and she said she hadn’t because she didn’t know what was causing her to feel the way she was feeling.  I then told her of my journey through starting to heal my own trauma over the past 12 months, what had and hadn’t helped me. I suggested to her that seeking professional help was essential as you cannot navigate the mine field that is childhood trauma on your own, you need someone to hold your hand through it. I got some of the books I have on the subject out and wrote them down for her so she can do some reading and told her how to get subsidised visits to different practitioners that can help her.

She calmed down and was taking in everything I was saying to her and told me that she would seek out people to help her with this great burden. I felt so much empathy for her and also gratitude that I could comfort and advise her during this really difficult period. We chatted a bit more, I made her a cup of tea and she calmed down and stopped sobbing. When you can’t understand why you feel so out of control it doesn’t occur to you that it’s your childhood come back to haunt you. It makes me so sad and angry that we are burdened with this unbearable pain in our middle years when we should be finding a space in ourselves that is peaceful. Childhood trauma is a life sentence, one we committed no crime to receive, one we didn’t ask for. It is extremely difficult to accept this is the way you are now, it’s so pervasive and always in the background and impossible to cure.

To all of you out there that were traumatised in your younger years I’m so sorry you had to go through those experiences, my heart breaks for you. Please seek help to aid in your recovery and most of all try to love the child inside, try to love the beautful person you have grown into. Surround yourself with people that respect and cherish you.

 

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Exorcism and Mental illness

A fascinating post by The Contemporary Shaman!

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1b90d0dc75515d9a4b1080eab11baffcExorcism (from Late Latin exorcism, from Greek exorkizein – to abjure) is the practice of evicting demons or other evil spiritual entities from a person or place, which they are believed to have possessed.

All those who were said to be the messengers or mediators of the gods practiced exorcism in many cultures throughout history.  The majority of religious pathways have exorcism practices and those who perform the exorcism are known as Priests, Rabbis, Shamans, Medicine men and Brahmans etc.

They would exorcise the demon or entity from the person who was thought to be possessed.  It was only practiced by those who were seen as having knowledge in this field. They needed a strong constitution and faith in order to rid the person of a powerful dark demonic force. (The origins of the word Demon originated from the Greek word ‘Daemon’ which is a word for spirit, which did…

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The Ace of Cups – The Essence of who you are. 

A timely reading about the Ace of Cups ❤️

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A couple of years ago I asked the tarot ‘who am I?’ and drew the Ace of Cups. At the time, I was at a stage in life where I had experienced major trauma and life issues that had shaken my world to the ground. I was only at the beginning of slowly piecing back together who I thought I was, without having any clue as to not only who, but how. I didn’t fully understand the significance of the answer the cards gave me, as is usually the way with these things. All I knew was that it was something precious, beautiful and needing to be nurtured and cultivated.

Fast forward to the present moment, and I can see that at the essence of every single one of us is the Ace of Cups. At least we start out that way, and the fact of the matter is that…

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October Tarotscopes 2017

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Aries ♈️

October will be a brighter month for you Dear Aries. You have been able to let go of some worries and your path is now clear. There are new beginnings in store for you and these are around finances, foundation and matters of the heart. I hear the word ‘abundance’ as I am typing, this means abundance in all its forms, not just money. Relationships with those closest to you will be important this month and you will have much love in your heart to share with others. You will gain a new appreciation of what is important to you which will in turn cause you to see to see your place in this world and how you impact others lives in a new and positive way. Your colour this months is blue. This rules the Throat Chakra so speaking your truth is important.

 

Taurus ♉️

Stability is what you want in your life Taurus & it can be yours but I feel you are pushing up against a person or a situation in your life. We know you love to dig your heels in but this is a good time to choose your battles wisely. Though you may be right in some way it’s time for you to take a step back and lay down your arms. The overthinking and stress you have been going through is not worth it and you are being advised to surrender this situation at this point in time. Step back, rest, release the thoughts and worries. Bring something new into your life, a hobby or a small business idea that will get your creative juices flowing. I see other people around you that can help with this. Your colour this month is green. This rules the Heart Chakra so forgiveness and living from your heart is the lesson.

 

Gemini ♊️

Things are moving forward at last Gemini! After a period of heaviness and emotional turmoil the clouds have lifted and you can see your way forward again. You have much support around you, both in this world as well as within the angelic and spiritual realm. Be confident in yourself and don’t be afraid to step forward on your path, keep your eye on the prize. There are professional people that help you greatly at this time so don’t be afraid to seek them out. Sometimes we need an expert in the field to advise us and counsel us, this will help greatly to will ensure we make better decisions for ourselves. Ask for help and it will come to you in ways you never would expect. Your colour this month is red. This rules the Root Chakra so having a strong foundation within yourself will make you feel good.

 

Cancer ♋️

There may be some unexpected events in your life this October Cancer peeps. I feel there is need for change in your life & the universe is going to help to bring them about. It’s a restructuring of things that will bring about happier times and more ease in your life. If things are complicated right now they won’t be for long and by the end of the year ypu will understand why these changes needed to happen. Don’t try to work out what this will be, rather trust in the powers that be to do the work for you, resistance is futile! You will also be guided to help others in the final months of the year, indeed you’re will look back on your own experiences and this in turn will help them. Your colour this month is yellow. This rules the Solar Plexus Chakra, having a strong self and willpower will serve you well.

 

Leo ♌️

Hello Dear Leo! October is going to be an interesting month for you. I feel there will be changes in your work, business and creativity. This is a much needed change as you have recently lost your inspiration… and this isn’t good for the Lions of the zodiac. You have allowed your thoughts to cloud your judgment at times which has affected your self confidence somewhat. Well it’s time to claim that back & take steps to move forward. Make plans, back yourself and get people on side that can help you. There also may be some travel for you within the next few months, this will help to clear the cobwebs from your mind & allow you to think more clearly. Your colour this month is orange. This rules the Sacral Chakra so creativity and inspiration are what it’s all about.

 

Virgo ♍️

It’s time to give yourself a break Virgo, you can be so hard on yourselves sometimes! Let down those walls a little and allow yourself the freedom to just be. You don’t need all those rules & regulations to BEcome who you truly are. I can see two sides of you, the strict side and the fun loving side that just wants to throw caution to the wind. Well it’s throw caution to the wind time. What have you been dreaming of? Is it the overseas holiday? Wanting to find love? Breaking out of the job that restricts you? Whatever it is you are being encouraged to embrace change in your life. If there are negative people around you it’s time for you to consider their place in the big scheme of things. Your colour this month is white. This rules the Crown Chakra so clearing your thoughts and thinking more positively is the way to go.

 

Libra ♎️

Emotions are highlighted for you this months Libra. It’s more about expressing them than not, in fact there may be some strong emotions that you’ve been feeling that have not been shown to or spoken about with one particular person. Whatever you do don’t continue to hold them in as this will not serve you well. If you can say them perhaps you could write a letter? This will bring you back into balance which is vital for your sign, the scales must be balanced. The other thing that’s coming up for you is learning and study. There is something you have been thinking of doing and the universe is encouraging you to go ahead with your idea. Whether it’s being the student or the teacher things will work out very well for you. Your colour this months is orange. This rules the Sacral Chakra which indicate emotions and creativity are highlighted.

 

Scorpio ♏️

October will find you facing many decisions in your life Scorpio. There may be important decisions you’ll have to make for on behalf of others. When it comes down to it using & trusting your intuition is the best way to go and by taking quiet time out you will be able to access this easily. Tap into the deep wellspring within yourself, ask your Angels and guides to come close and they will guide you. There may be some difficult or painful moments but you have the strength to see this through. There will be news around a younger person, perhaps a son or daughter. Be sure to look after yourself and spend some time near water, the beach would be perfect, paddles in the salt water and wash you Crown Chakra with it. Your colour this month is pink. This is about the Heart Chakra so take good care of your heart.

 

Sagittarius ♐️

This month will bring you joy Sagi people. Relationships and love will take up a lot of your time and I feel there will be lots of love and support shared between you and those closest to you. Spending more time with your partner and family will bring you great joy. Organising a get together to celebrate an important event is sure to bring much happiness and laughter. Take time to look after yourself too, a pamper day or doing something nurturing for yourself will enable you to get through the month with ease. Love yourself & speak kindly to yourself if you are faced with challenges. I feel a sense of peace and calm around you as become more in tune with yourself. Your colour this month is purple. This rules the Third Eye Chakra and asks you to trust your inner knowing and your visions.

 

Capricorn ♑️

The time is right to work on the new skills you have learned and to take steps to implement these in your life Capricorn. Trust yourself to know what will work for you and what won’t. There is great energy around you that can be harnessed to help you so be sure to access this. Have more confidence in yourself and speak with conviction to those around you. You will have dealings with a strong male this month, he may bring wise advice to you so be sure to listen. Expexct changes in your work that you will have to adapt to, this won’t be a problem so feel confident as you move forward. All good things take time and you have the perseverance to be able to do this. Your co.our this month is yellow. This rules the Solar Plexus Chakra where you will find trust and inner worth.

 

Aquarius ♒️

The word for you this month Aquarius is Change. Much change will happen in all areas of your life and it’s time that this happened. You have been stagnant too long, afraid to make moves but that’s all about to change. It will be an emotional month & there is a karmic feel about the things that will occur. I feel things will be balanced after events earlier this year where things were not as they seemed and things were said and done that may have been regretted but cannot be changed now. This may have something to do with family members or a friend that is no longer in your life. Whatever remains unresolved will be sorted within the next 3 months. Take this in your stride and be honest with yourself and all concerned. Your co.our this month is blue. This rules the Throat Chakra be sure to speak your through but also be prepared to listen.

 

Pisces ♓️

There is great energy available to you this month Pisces so take advantage of this. You also have great support from the spiritual world which help you to access higher realms of consciousness. Your intuition will be heightened and you may find yourself helping or advising strangers that you meet. You are a beacon of light in this sometimes dark world so do not be afraid to shine. Be sure to take some time for yourself and treat yourself to something nice, something that holds meaning for you.  Get together with some friends and celebrate each other, the feminine is highlighted here so catch up with your female family members or friends to enjoy a nice meal or coffee. Give of yours.ef and this month will bring you much joy. I see two colours for you, pink and white. This indicates the Heart & Crown Chakra so Love & intuition are what you will embrace this month.

“12 Life Impacting Symptoms Complex PTSD Survivors Endure”

A Broken Blue Sky

It's Not That Simple

Complex Trauma and Complex PTSD are fairly new terms and not well understood by many professionals or by many who suffer with it. I was diagnosed with Complex PTSD, but didn’t fully understand all the ways in which it has impacted my life.

I have lived my life with the effects of severe depression and Complex PTSD without a name for my suffering, until just recently. So I locked it all up inside. I didn’t understand or know what I was experiencing or why. So I hid it. I was afraid and I didn’t want anyone to think I was crazy. It has been a very frightening experience in so many ways.

I felt shame for my internal struggle. I thought it was me! I knew there was something wrong with me, but I didn’t know why I struggled with all the internal turmoil. I often had those close to…

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